Yucky weather for driving today. Rain, & traffic, bad headaches & massholes.

Been working so much lately, it was nice to have a few days off. Took a trip to see the Madre & friends, only didn't see the friends part. Maybe next time. Home now.

Planning on finishing school next semester. Hopefully.

New apartment soon. Hopefully.

but other than that, i leave for OR on monday. its gonna be a good time. i packed my fun shoes.

also, i am moving this week. yay. along with working every day. and getting ready for a vacation.

i am moving WHILE i'm on vacation. i'm talented.

I'M GOING TO OREGON! YAY!

1. Ween Concert
2. Camping at Crater Lake
3. Visit My Brother

I feel good again today. Work was shitty, normal, and just the way I like it. Hanging out with my best friend Ro was the best thing ever. I miss her. We hardly ever talk anymore. It was good.

Alrighty, then ... picture this if you will.

It began at 2 AM (while eating an entire box of Krispy Kremes, at my need-to-know post just outside Area 51, contemplating the whole "chosen people" thing) a flaming, stealth banana split the sky, like wide open.

I never expected to see it in a place like this.
I do believe I spilled a diet soda or something right on my Birkenstocks.
Then he yelled at me.

Holy fucking shit!

Then the X-Files beings (who were like some kind of blue-green Jackie Chan with Isabella Rossellini lips & breath that reeked) did a wicked jump there while making the sound "a-banana-da-banana." That's when I opened up my bug-eyes, my gaping jaw, and my sweaty L. Ron Hubbard upper lip. And all I could think was, "I hope Uncle Martin here doesn't notice that I pissed my fuckin' pants."

(So alive in this way)

Like an apparition, He had me crying out,
"Fuck me, it's gotta be deadhead chemistry. The bottom got on the top of me. Got me seein' E-motherfuckin'-T!"

After calming me down with some orange slices and some fetal spooning, E.T. revealed to me his singular purpose. He said, "You are the Chosen One, the One who will deliver the message. A message of hope to those who choose to hear it and a warning to those who do not."

Me. The Chosen One?
They chose me, and I didn't graduate from fuckin' high school. I'd better listen.
Then he looked right through me with somniferous almond eyes. (Don't even know what that means, must remember to write it down).

This is surreal, like the time they floated away. See, my heart is pounding cause this shit never happens to me.
I can't breathe right now!

It was so real, like I woke up in Wonderland. Also a bit terrifying.
I don't wanna be all alone when I tell this story.
And can anyone tell me why?
Will I ever be coming down?

Finally, it's my lucky day
See, my heart is racing cause this shit never happens to me
I can't breathe right now!
You believe me, don't you? Please believe what I just said! This wasn't all in my head.
See, they took me by the hand and invited me right in. Then they showed me something.
I don't even know where to begin.
Strapped down on my bed, feet cold, eyes red. I'm out of my head.
Am I alive? Am I dead?

Can't remember what they said!!!
God damn, shit the bed!

Overwhelmed as one would be, placed in my position. Such a heavy burden now to be the One. Born to bear and read you all the details of our ending, to write it down for all the world to see.
But I forgot my pen
Shit the bed again ...
Typical.

Strapped down on my bed, feet cold and eyes red.
I'm out of my head
Am I alive? Am I dead?

Sunkist and Sudafed, Gyroscopes and infared won't help (brain dead).
Can't remember what they said!
God damn, shit the bed
I can't remember what they said to me!!!
Can't remember what they said to make me out to be a hero
Don't know, won't know
God damn, shit the bed!

i feel good today. i think its because i have the whole weekend off. yay.

I think I made my point. It's been how long since I updated? My friends don't update anymore either. I didn't mean to ruin it for everyone. I'm sorry.

I'm feeling much better about work. But I don't want to talk about that.

Maybe I'll start updating again. If I have something to say. Right now I don't. Except that I'm tired.

It is now my new job to make work suck for everybody. I am good at it. Yay!

And I hate how livejournal has become an extension of the burger king drama. I'm done with it. This is my last update.

I messed up my shoulder again today at work. It was scary because I couldn't stop what I was doing. We were so busy. I got really dizzy and sweaty. My vision blurred and I coudn't hear anything but static. It was like listening to a non-radio station. But I couldn't stop. And it hurt so bad. I should probably go get it checked out. My brother tells me that there's probably not much that can be done about it.

check out MySpace ... http://www.myspace.com/adollaratatime

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAY!!!!!!!!!

I feel completely stubborn today. For completely girlie reasons. It's probably best not to talk to me cause I might get pissy. My parents are pressuring me about school again. I hate it. Makes me so angry. It's always about money.

And they told me that they're putting the house on the market too. "We're not kicking anybody out. You're welcome to come stay with us at camp" I can't stay there with them. There's hardly two bedrooms there. Separated by curtains. It could be as early as february. I am in desperate need of a roommate. So PLEASE, if you're looking for a roommate...HELLO, look over here.

I just got home from a long weekend with my mother. I had a good time. I'm glad I'm home though. (I don't know why after the way I was welcomed back with talk about school and house-selling)

Stop whining... I just need sleep.

I'm feeling kind of gross this morning cause we don't have any diet soda in the house and I am forced to drink Pepsi. Yuck.

I should be packing to go to my mom's cause I'm leaving first thing in the morning (if the weather's good). I have to work tonight, so I can't procrastinate. Blah. But I don't feel like doing it right now either. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm going back to bed.

Congratulations Josh & Karla. I love you, my friends.

There's not much to say lately.

Have a good New Year.

In 2005 I...

[x] broke a promise
[] made a new best friend
[] fallen in love
[] fallen out of love
[x] done something you swore never to do
[x] lied
[] stole
[x] went behind your parents back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] dissapointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[] got arrested
[] kissed in the rain
[] slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed my life
[] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[xxx] sat home all day doing nothing (i did that a lot)
[] pretended to be sick
[] left the country
[] thought i was dieing/ almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[xx] made a total fool of yourself (i was made a fool of, does that count?)
[x] met great people
[] snuck out of the house
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x]pigged out over the summer
[] met someone from myspace in person
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[] partied more than 5 times
[x] was never home on weekends
[] got into a car accident
[x] found a person i never thought i'd become real good friends with
[x] had friends who were drifting away from me
[]had someone close to me die
[x]was in a relationship
[] became wiser
[xxx] became stupider (i watched TEAM AMERICA)
[] had a high cell phone bill
[x] wasted most of my money on food
[] had a fist fight
[]went to the beach
[] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[]liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x]had a wasted night
[x] became closer to a lot of people
[x]had a first something
[x]drank alcohol
[]smoked weed/drugs
[]did anything illegal
[x]kissed a boy
[x]kissed a girl (it was a boy who turned out to be a girl)
[x]had a crush
[]got dumped
[]lost a family member
[x]got bad grades
[]got suspended
[]moved states
[]got a myspace
[]started a band
[]went streaking
[x]done something you shouldnt have
[x]kept a secret
[x]told a secret
[x]done something you totally regret
[x]changed your view on things

Lets argue about who did the stupidest thing today. Here's mine : I washed a whole pack of gum with my good clothes.

This is fucking stupid.